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​Foolishness Redeemed

Have you ever done something stupid, foolish, and very embarrassing? 
My family was blessed to be able to attend a family weekend retreat at Sto Tomas, Batangas, about 60kms from Manila. It was a fun time with the kids and great learning for us – husband and wife. We learned about Roles, Conflict Resolution, Communication, Forgiveness, and so on…

After the retreat, some friends were going to ride with us back to Manila, about 5 of them. So in order to make space in our car, my wife suggested that I put the stroller, which is bulky, in the car of one of our friend. What a great idea! I packed all the bags hurriedly and stuffed them in our friend’s car, along with our 2 older kids to ride with them. Amazing! And so I thought. Our car was spacious to accommodate our guests so they can be comfortable. My friend and kids went off earlier while we stayed for a few hours more, relaxing in the room waiting until it was time to go. What is it with men and listening? But that is a different topic altogether.

As I was on the way to the parking lot, a thought came to me – I HID MY CAR KEY IN THE BACKPACK. OH MY GOODNESS! This is the most stupid thing I have ever done so far, next to leaving the house key in our house, where we can’t get back in. Frantically,  I called my friend. They were back in Manila. How in the world can I get it back? I felt hopeless and in despair. Shocked and ashamed of my foolishness.  Finally, one of the staff suggested that there was a shuttle that was coming to our place but not for 4 more hours. But so be it. My wife bonded with her friends who were still there at the venue. She didn’t scold me this time. Thank God for her spiritual breakthrough. I suggested to her to extend for another night (Sunday) but it was expensive and I was leaving for a trip on Tuesday. So I highly encourage families to join this event next time – FAMILY BREAKTHROUGH WEEKEND. Just be mindful of your car key. 😉

My friend and his wife decided to bring the key back to the place. He drove around 200kms just for me. WHAT A RARE AND TRUE FRIEND. He was a blessing. I was tired when I got back to Manila, how much more him, driving non-stop. I can’t thank him enough – Thank you Garrick and Karen for helping us: get my key back and taking care of the kids.

How can i ever get my key back? It was not impossible, there were several ways but it will take a long long time to be able to get back. And I didn’t know how to go back if ever I went to get it. “How can I get to heaven?” A question most people are concerned about. In this case, it is impossible for us to get there. Neither religion nor good works can take us there. But because of GOD’S UNFAILING LOVE, He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to die on the cross to pay for our sins and after 3 days, was raised back to life. I do not deserve it, a wretched sinner that I am. He did it so that I can receive forgiveness and adoption to His family. If this is your desire, you can pray to God from your heart something like this: “Dear God, thank you for your love for me. Thank you for sending Jesus to die on the cross to pay for my sins. Please forgive me of all my sins. I accept you as my Lord and Savior. I surrender my life to you. In Jesus name, amen.” If you prayed that prayer, let me know. Welcome to the family of God! Your journey with a new life just began. Once I was lost but now I’m found, was blind but now I see.

God bless y’all.

Mother’s Sacrificial Love

Matthew 15:21-28 tells about a Canaanite woman who begged Jesus to heal her demon-possessed daughter. I just realized that this passage demonstrate a mother’s persistence and sacrificial love.

The mother showed persistence even when she was initially ignored and a nuisance to the surrounding, being scandalous (v23), which is so embarrassing. That is how we parents feel when our children does a tantrum in public. Afterwards, she was noticed only to be rejected (v24 “I was only sent to the lost sheep of Israel”). Laying all pride aside, she knelt down before Jesus, begging him again. She replied in humility and desperation (v25-27 “Lord, help me! … Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.”) Finally, her request was granted by Jesus (v28 “Woman, you have great faith! You’re request is granted.”) Her daughter was free from the suffering inflicted by the evil spirit.

What amazing sacrificial love that mothers have for their children. They do everything in their power to meet the needs of the family. Relinquishing their own comfort, they go out of their way to aid, guide, rescue, provide, and serve for the good of all. 

My third baby isn’t easy to feed. So for me, I quit on her and I leave her hungry. But not my wife, she patiently take her time, delaying her list of things to do and feeds her. She does it time and time again, day in and day out. So imagine if both of us have my characteristic then our children would die of hunger. Thank God, He has given us mothers, who nurtures and care for the family.

As I always hear in parenting seminars, mothers are most important with kids aged 0-7years old. That’s why my wife gave up her work and went full-time 9years ago. It was a tough decision to make but God provided and she is still productive in many areas like helping in social organizations as we also homeschool our kids, in the church, and so on. So moms, if you really can afford to give it up and stay with the kids, I strongly urge you to do it. It is the best thing you can invest in and it will impact the next generation too.

To my amazing wife, to my wonderful mom, and to all the mothers – HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! Where will we be without you. May God bless you more with strength for the days to come. Praise God for your persistence and sacrificial love for your family.

I Love Clash of Clan

​January 7, I’m in Cebu on a business trip, so I attended worship service at Ccf (Christ Commision Fellowship). They sang the song EVERYDAY by Hillsong with this lyrics:
Everyday, Lord, I’ll Learn to stand upon Your word

And I pray that I, I might come to know You more

That You would guide me in every single step I take, 

that everyday I can be Your light unto the world
Everyday, it’s You I live for

Everyday, I’ll follow after You

Everyday, I’ll walk with You, my Lord
God used this song to speak to my heart, followed by a video message by Marty Ocaya, a youth pastor for Elevate (ministry for high school and college), about ABIDING IN HIM and His Love. It has been 1 year since I have fallen to idolatry. What is my idol? It is very difficult to admit and realize – I LOVE CLASH OF CLAN. I have justified that I am not addicted to it because I still finish my responsibilities at home, in the office, in my trip, and even in the ministry. I only play it when I’m free like when I’m alone on a trip waiting, and every chance that I get, so I say. Edric’s son is wiser than me when he told his dad that he didn’t want to play a game because he can’t stop thinking about it. 
I love the game because it appeals to my analytical mind, the strategy development, the optimization of upgrades, the craving for victory. I devoted time to study it in youtube, watching videos of how to do it properly and great strategies to attack and defend. I was parsing it down to teach my brothers who already played it longer than me. I really love to learn and teach and optimize how things should be. 
However, there are draw backs and here’s the bitter reality:

– At night, I play the audio Bible to put my kids to sleep while I was playing the game. (About 30mins to an hour) No wonder i finished the Bible so fast last year. I even repeated Psalms and Proverbs several times.

– I am spiritually dead. I’m a dead branch. I don’t bear fruit for God anymore as i was not spending time with Him. Revelations 2:4 says “You have forsaken your first love.”  I still do pray at times, involved in church activities, listen partially to the Bible. I even won on a Bible trivia last Christmas party. But I was merely going through the motions.

– I have become irritable and angry at home maybe due to the fact that I wanted to play but I can’t because I was hiding it from my wife and kids. I have relinquished my role as a dad and a husband because I enjoyed my ga”ME” time.

– I do not have any plans for the future because my mind is already so preoccupied with the things I need to do in the game. Hey, guess what??? I know how to plan after all. 

– A controversial point would be, is there a spiritual forces that was keeping me in bondage??? Nobody can prove it, but I believe it so. I thank the people who were praying for me. I thank God’s grace, His mercy, and His patience to me. He didn’t give up on me. Message after message (from Edric to Peter Jr, bro. Jimmy), He was speaking to me. I knew what i needed to do but I didn’t want to, as I said, I was justifying it. So I still didn’t delete it.
Last week at the INTENTIONAL DISCIPLESHIP CONFERENCE, pastor Peter mentioned about stewardship – We are not the owners of our time, not even our SPARE TIME AND SPARE MONEY. Finally, I surrendered my heart back to God. I confessed my sin of idolatry – loving COC with all my heart, mind, and strength.  I have decided to delete the game once and for all and never install it again. A foolish thing to even start with. Once more, I pray that I will ABIDE IN CHRIST (from our series last year in Jesus unboxed, the Gospel of John – https://youtu.be/kwaECcI6lNA ) . Great year to start a fresh, renewing the soul, the mind, and the body. To God be the glory.

My Confession

​Sunday service was about Luke 18, the Pharisee and the Tax Collector. For the first time in my life, God revealed my heart to me – I am a Pharisee. Subconsciously, I am self-righteous and critical of others. I do not have the heart of compassion for people. It is true that I want to help people get better but LOVE was missing. I have been doing rituals for the past years but my heart was far from God. 
I have fallen in the sin of idolatry to my game, coc. I have loved it with all of my heart, mind, and strength. I have pursued intimacy with it. I have neglected my family and God because of it. But by God’s AMAZING GRACE and His LOVE and MERCY, His patience and constant gentle proding, He has reached my heart and I finally obeyed His call. A call to delete it and return to Him, to my first love. Oh, how awesome and great is His Love for me, a sinner, a wretched man that I am… He has forgiven my transgressions and my iniquities. He has restored me into His loving arms once more and I just can’t stop but be grateful, as tears of pain and joy roles down my cheeks as I sing my praise to Him. Glory and Honor be to my God, amen.

Marital Problem 2

2. How can i love my wife if there is so much pain.

Prayer: Lord it is so difficult to love our wives specially when we’re hurt and when we feel empty. You invite us Lord Jesus when you said in Matthew, “come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and i will give you rest.” Satisfy us oh Lord with your unquenchable river of love. Let your love overflow and fill our hearts that we may be able to love our wives. Help us oh Lord to have that sweet romantic love of our relationship back again just as the time we were courting and in our girl friend stage.

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Love my Wife

thI attended the wedding of a friend this morning. It was a heart warming processional by the bride while marching to the music of “The Prayer”. With the thought of their love story in mind, culminating in this union of hearts and lives. The heart’s desire to enter marriage with the one you love. What a JOY!

I am reminded of the romantic love that i started with Maggie. We have been married for 10years. It seems that the romantic sweet love is being replaced by the realities of life – the chores, the duties, the responsibilities of the family. Adding to the fire are misunderstanding, unmet needs, disrespecting one another. (Don’t get me wrong, Maggie is a wonderful wife though, almost perfect. She is God’s blessing to me.) Our love for each other day before, the “kilig” moments that sweethearts feel isn’t there anymore and it seems cheesy when you watch younger people having. I even think to myself – wait till your marriage, you’ll see.

And so God reminds me again, as a leader of the family to love first. I need to anchor my relationship on God, draw strength from Him so that i may overflow with His love. And as i spent time with God in prayer, crying out to Him with my pain, my needs. His presence filled me with His peace, His joy, His love, His forgiveness. I confess my shortcomings to Him for my wife and children, asking Him to bless us as we start anew. As i commit to God again, to love my wife, be gentle and patient with her And the kids with my words and actions, not to be hot tempered. Restoring our love into the sweet stage is not optional. It is a MUST and it is God’s will for all of our families so that we can be use for His glory and honor. With God all things are possible!

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