May 15, 1986 – My brother shared the gospel to me when I was 8 years old. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I accepted His death on the cross for the forgiveness of my sins. It started my new life in Christ. My brother encouraged me to join Sunday school, to read my bible starting with the gospel of John. As a baby Christian, God made Himself real to me as He answered my prayers and as I talked to Him… He answered my simple request of delaying rain from falling because I was in a tricycle. Since I was young when I became a Christian, my misconduct was not too many, I was a good boy until reaching puberty or early teen years when I fell into homosexuality. It was not that I didn’t have crush on a girl, I did even during those times. It was a series of “I’m sorry, I won’t do it again” and then falling back to the same sin over and over again. It was quite some time until God’s grace rescued me and turned my life around. I was able to break free from it.
In High School, I continued serving God, going to parks and sharing the 4 spiritual laws along with some others. My classmates even called me “Father” like a priest. My quiet time and devotion continued on. As I reached 3rd year, I became devotional chairman and was sharing God’s word in front of the class (maybe once a week or once a month??? I forgot.) As I was in College, I continued conversing with God even when on the LRT and walking home… it was a sweet friendship. But still my life wasn’t perfect, as I struggled with lust of the eyes, and at times falling to the sin of pornography.
Even up to now, new struggles emerges from time to time – lust of the eyes even adultery (as Jesus states it, even in looking at a woman with lust is already a sin of adultery and is the same with committing the act), reacting in anger… Don’t get me wrong… these are not a lifestyle of sin but a struggle that battles within, temptations that come and go… With these, I am constantly in need of Christ Forgiveness. I am constantly coming to the foot of the cross, surrendering my weakness to Jesus, and needing His blood to cleanse me from my sins. I am never worthy to be called His child. I am never worthy to serve Him. BUT HE LOVES ME, and that is what REDEMPTION is all about… I am a serious sinner and yet God has showed me MERCY, He has shown me that His faithfulness is new every morning. He does not count my sin and iniquity against me but as far as the east is from the west so has He taken my sins away from me… promising to remember it no more, and not to use it against me… With this, what can I say? What can I do? He deserves to have my full allegiance. My life is not my own because He has bought it with His precious blood. I am His slave, I am His servant. Yet, He did not treat me as such… By His grace, He has changed my dirty clothes to white, He has purified me and put His righteousness on me, He has invited me to dine in His banqueting table… He has called me to be His son… He has called me to be His friend… The amazing grace of God! The amazing love of God! What can I say except to thank Him and surrender my life to Him. I pray that he may continue to keep my ways pure and blameless as I walk with Him that I may be able to live to glorify His name, to this generation and to the next!
In Christ, the Author and Perfecter of my faith,